...written on 08.20.07, @ 10:44 am
I hate to post and run but life is crazy and I'm not sure when I'll ever get back here.... or if I want to.
But... I feel as though I need to mention:
1. I am officially married.
2. I am officially pregnant and due in April.
3. I am moving to Nebraska the first week in September
4. We are buying a business and will take over ownership January 1.
5. It's possible I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life. There are a few prior moments in a prior life that come close though.
I didn't change. I grew within myself and came to some realizations about what I need and want in my life.
Was it unfair of me not to talk to you about it? Sure. I apologize. At the time I was still trying to sort out what I was feeling and why.
Friendships happen for a reason and most of the time they serve a purpose. We were great friends for a long time.
After a while it felt like I was just the person you complained to. I was the person you asked advice of but never listened to (thus making me wonder why I waste my time/breath). I was the person that could do favors for you. I was the person you could perpetuate the drama with. I was the person you could lie to.
Sometimes it was just too emotionally overwhelming and after a while I wanted no part of it.
You say things are changing for the better and I hope for your sake that's true and I wish you luck with the rest of your life. If you've come to some sort of peace with yourself, you're not lying to yourself, you've accepted some responsibility for your problems, and you've eliminated some drama... you should be fine.
I've always said I think you're a good person. The problem is that I could never convince you and until you believe it yourself... I can't get involved. It's too hard for me.
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